Thursday, November 15, 2012

...

and So I made the first leap. I did what I've always wanted to do... Now what?

My biggest enemy really is myself.

I have been given maaaany opprtunities ever since I stopped, I've been offered jobs (not job-jobs) that I'd love to do, but I'm afraid.

I don't know what this fear is, but I want to let go of it :(

Friday, November 9, 2012

Freedom, Liberation, but still clueless.

What do I need to do? What can I do now? I finally did it, quit school, and now I know that I need to rest. But three seconds after I've told people that I'm currently FREE, they come crashing at me with opportunities. Opportunities I could almost never say no to.

They are bringing me back to the things that I used to love to do so much and just lately hated doing, which is the reason why I can't make a decision if I should do it at this period of "rest" for myself.

I was told to relax, stay away from the pressure. But the thing is, I used to love the pressure, it was what kept me going, it was what I loved about all the things I did. But it was also the same thing that made me weak, one of the things that broke me.I have to face it again, hopefully soon, but as of now, I just can't make a decision yet. And like what they say, when opportunity knocks, you have to open the door, because it might not come back again. I just fear that, if I open my door, I might not be ready and I might end up disappointing even more people.

Why does life have to be so complicated? Or am I the only one complicating my life?

Gaaaah.